“Today
I say to them
say to them
say to them, Lord:
look! I am beautiful, beautiful with
my wing that is wounded
my eye that is bonded
or my ear not funded
or my walk all a-wobble.”
-Gwendolyn Brooks, “Infirm”
by Ben Palpant
by Ben Palpant
November 22nd is, perhaps, my favorite day of the year to die. Weird? Maybe. But consider this: Aldous Huxley, Jack London, William Bradford, John F. Kennedy, and C.S. Lewis died on that day. Even Robin Hood and Blackbeard, the pirate, reportedly died on November 22nd. But four influential little girls, largely forgotten from history, also died on that day and their deaths have changed my life forever.
The Spaffords decided to spend their vacation in England, but a last minute obligation in his law practice forced Horatio to stay home. His wife and daughters were at sea several days when another ship collided with theirs. All four daughters drowned that day. When their mother reached England, she sent him a heart-breaking telegram: “Saved Alone.”
Horatio’s only son had died only two years earlier at the age of four, and here, overnight, he was bereft of all the rest. Those deaths thrust him into the basement of his soul where he wrestled with unparalleled grief. He climbed aboard a ship with that anguish and began the journey to join his wife Anne, solitary and sorrowing. When his ship sailed over the very spot where his daughters had drowned, Horatio chose to do something that has changed the way I see suffering and the way I respond to suffering. In his grief and anguish, he did something utterly courageous. He wrote a song.
His decision to write a song in the midst of his suffering forces us to ask the big question that nobody’s asking: “What will I do with my suffering?”
Life’s pain often arrives suddenly, abruptly changing everything. C.S. Lewis put it this way: “We can ignore even pleasure. But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.” Pain, to some degree or another, is a guarantee in life. The encounter with suffering forces us to decide what we will do with it-whether we will remain deaf or whether we will listen to God-but the decision would be easier if we established principles ahead of time, before the anguish sets in. Most of us try to forget or ignore our suffering. We certainly don’t memorialize it, like Horatio Spafford did. Some of us have subconsciously bought the lie that pleasure is the aim of life and any suffering is a roadblock to our life’s aim.
What would happen if we changed our aim in life from self-fulfillment to God-fulfillment? Would we view pain differently? Horatio Spafford saw his suffering as an opportunity to worship and draw closer to God. He saw it as an opportunity to write a song, one that has ministered to generations of Christians ever since: “It Is Well With My Soul”.
“When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.”
Horatio Spafford’s response to tragedy was born from an uncommon imagination. Maybe it’s time to imagine our story, including suffering, more like he did. Maybe it’s time to see suffering as an opportunity to know God more urgently, more intimately.
We all want fulfillment. We all want a richer life. I think suffering is an important means to both, but only if we respond to it well. Here are four principles for turning suffering into an opportunity for a richer walk with God:
Those four principles will enrich life. If you’d like to further explore these four principles, you can do so in my new book.
If you’d like a deeper walk with God through suffering, I wrote this book for you. I can’t wait to share it with you. Spread the word. Spread the light.
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by Ben Palpant
by Ben Palpant
Maggie Jackson, in her book Distraction wrote, “Amid the glittering promise of our new technologies and the wondrous potential of our scientific gains, we are nurturing a culture of social diffusion, intellectual fragmentation, sensory detachment. In this new world, something is amiss. And that something is attention.”
While some cognitive neuroscientists believe that attention is an organ system, like our respiratory system, we at least know that attention is the basic organizational power of our lives. Attention is, continues Jackson, “key not only to higher forms of thinking but to our morality and even our very happiness…in a world of information overload, we need brevity and distillation…We are adapting to a new world, but in doing so are we redefining ‘smart’ to mostly mean twitch speed, multitasking, and bullet points?…How do we keep from getting lost in these mercurial and diffuse realms, where time for reflection and focus is increasingly lost as a valued part of life?”
I write this as one who has discovered rather late in life that I am the victim of my own distracted habits. Having suffered migraine headaches for many years due to various stresses, I blamed them on chemistry or biology forgetting that the mind, body, and emotions are all inextricably connected. These migraine headaches increased in frequency and intensity until they culminated in the great migraine attack of my life in January of 2008. The attack left me intellectually scrambled, disoriented, and physically immobile for some time.
My father’s counsel, coinciding with those of my dear friends and the great C.S. Lewis, was that God had used pain in my body as a megaphone and encouragement to slow down in life. Since I did not listen to those warnings, God had, in some respects, forced this rest upon me. During those weeks of immobility, I came to see my life and mind as analogous to fields for planting. Like an incompetent farmer, I had over planted the field and left it undernourished. Rather than rotating my crops and giving regions of my mind and life opportunity to rest, I developed those overly-busy habits of life so common amongst evangelical Christians. O, sure, I pretended that those few minutes driving hither and yon with music playing were sufficient moments of reflection, but they were nothing more than a continuation of that stream of distraction that had come to define my life.
Attention acts as a plow to loosen the soil of the mind and prepare it to receive the seed that is planted there. Split-attention and hyper-productivity, my dominant habits of life, would be akin to a farmer who skips his plow along the surface of the soil and then throws his seed as quickly as possible: not an effective farming method and certainly not effective for developing a reflective lifestyle. Effective intellectual farming is a more patient process requiring attention so that when the seed is planted, whatever that seed might be, then contemplation can water and nourish the seed.
I believe that the development of a contemplative life is a Christian obligation and I suspect that it will take the rest of my life to unwind the cords of busyness and distraction that so entangle me. The body tremors, sudden onset of fatigue, and idiopathic Narcolepsy that developed in the year following that migraine attack might very well have biological causes, but I am certain of one thing: a split-attention lifestyle combined with hyper-productivity have undermined my intellectual, physical, and spiritual clarity. I am not alone in this, I am sure.
Maggie Jackson’s questions are poignantly relevant and her comment that “we are becoming a nation of the untethered” is spot on. Like water spiders, we skim on the surface of life, unable to taste deeply, incapable of substantial self-reflection, and absolutely satisfied with surface observations. We have either forgotten or ignored the fact that wisdom does not sink her roots into the soil of distraction.
If we want wisdom, which is the first goal of every Christian reader, then we must be people of attention. The Latin mother of our word “attention” is the word attendere: literally to stretch toward. Being so well trained for a lifestyle of distraction, we have difficulty stretching our minds toward anything for any significant length of time and this inability has social, emotional, spiritual, and intellectual consequences.
The current intellectual skill set amongst many of the next generation is more akin to skimming, to data selection, than to anything like rumination. One can hardly blame them for this tendency since we have built the world that has raised them and gave them suck, but it seems altogether strange that so few are willing to question the rudimentary shape of modern society itself. The social, emotional, spiritual, and intellectual consequences should come as no surprise.
We are so wired for sound, so primed to pursue the latest novelty, that we gutted our modern lives of any opportunity to ruminate quietly, to practice attentiveness. Not only have we removed such possibility, but we have actively filled the spaces that were left from the removal with objects or activities that force either multi-tasking or abandoned intellectual myopia. The explosion of technological capabilities that have aided in this elimination of rumination have perhaps intoxicated our humanistic longings so much so that while we know that we can, nobody is asking whether we should.
We have all assumed that more data at our fingertips is a good thing without counting the cost of such an unending stream of information. The written word today is far less “fraught with meaning and deeply embedded in our psyches, than the transparent carryall of burgeoning info-bits” (ibid). These info-bits and lightning access to any given piece of data has given us the illusion of knowledge, but this is not actual knowledge.
Actual knowledge is acquired only by intellectual chewing, rumination or contemplation, by stretching one’s mind toward a given thing. Contemplation is especially necessary for the act of reading because it allows for the reader to ingest the text rather than skim along its surface.
Practiced contemplation, therefore, bridges the gap between the higher things found in reading and our own inadequacy and fickleness. Attention and contemplation are necessary tools for the Christian who desires to remain a cognizant and reflective observer of all God is teaching whether in nature or in literature.
by Ben Palpant
by Ben Palpant
If it isn’t apparent by now that I’m convinced of the essential role of the imagination in our lives, then we have a serious failure of communication. Today’s blog post describes the kind of healthy imagination that will effectively make a difference in the world. So let’s cut to the chase.
One way for the Christian imagination to do so is by affirming the world’s physical beauty and the underlying order with which it was created by God. God is not in the business of dealing only with spiritual things. Perhaps it might be more appropriate, though possibly confusing, to say that God has spiritualized all things in the Incarnation: all physical things have significance to God and we bring Him delight when we play physically in this physical world in a way that is morally good. It is my humble opinion that many of us are too afraid of being happy or being pleasured by the physical. We are afraid of worshiping the creation rather that the Creator, but the wilds of Montana, the flickering lights of downtown, and the old potatoes in the cellar are worth loving if only because God loves them.
Another way for the Christian imagination to glorify Christ and build his kingdom is by losing sight of one’s self. The modern Christian finds himself perpetually pressured toward self-actualization even though his only essential job is to love God and love others. Thus, the Christian imagination is stymied by a vision so narrow in focus, that there is only the self within its visual walls and we consume ourselves with self-reflection. We are like the Israelites of old who refused to look at the golden snake for fear of the real snakes at their feet. Those who looked to the snake, a type of Christ, were preserved by their unwavering attention upon something other than their own self-preservation. Likewise, Christians must look to Christ, they must delight in him, and such devotion promises good fruit. When God is at the center of our vision, we see all things by his light and we present all things by his light.
As Piper stated, “the ultimate end of creation is neither being nor seeing, but delighting and displaying. Delighting in and displaying ‘the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ’ (II Corinthians 4:6). …The display of God’s glory will be both internal and external. It will be both spiritual and physical. We will display the glory of God by the Christ-exalting joy of our heart and by the Christ-exalting deeds of our resurrection bodies” (Contending for our All, p. 73).
A properly attuned imagination also serves a priestly function as it draws us into closer communion with Christ. The role, then, of the Christian writer is to draw others into a closer communion with Christ, not through the preaching of the word, but by remaining true to the art as art, that the reader or observer may glimpse Christ subtly as the art requires-less by proposition and more by painting subtle images in the mind. Langan is correct when she writes that “the public too, still thirsts for the Beloved’s face…it is the Christian imagination’s role to keep this thirst intense, by recalling that face, re-presenting it over and over again.”
Let us, therefore, diligently feed our imaginations as an act of obedience so that we might glorify Christ and better build his kingdom.
by Ben Palpant
“Deprive children of stories and you leave them unscripted, anxious stutterers in their actions as in their words.” -Alasdair MacIntyre
A peer of mine, bemoaning the inept vacuum we were unfortunate enough to share, once called it, “sound and fury, signifying nothing.” Having both read Shakespeare’s “Macbeth”, we shared a good chuckle over that; a moment of shared community that was elevated above simple complaining by the nature of the comment. What a wonderful example of a Christian with a mouth full of books who sees every minute detail of life colored by a life of stories. With one simple comment, my colleague enriched the event of a broken vacuum with all the energy, philosophical angst, and theological meaning inherent within that moment in “Macbeth”.
A person able to speak literature into a moment of shared frustration over a broken vacuum cleaner is a person able to speak literature into moments of much greater import. Cases of law and jurisprudence, the fields of medicine and education, the spheres of government, the church, and the family all have their myriad moments that are best explained, informed, and colored by something from literature. The ability to make such an apropos comment comes at the end of a great deal of reading: it is the fruit of a lifetime of good reading habits.
As Eli Wiesel once wrote, “story is something that happens to you as much as a car wreck or a job promotion or falling in love” (The Gates of the Forest). The event of reading a particular book can and should be so dramatic that it will propel us toward personal appropriation. For a Christian, this appropriation means that a story either draws us closer to Christ or away from him, just as any other activity either draws us closer to or farther away from Him. As a result, Christians readers keep certain principles in mind.
Christ summed up the law and the prophets with this command and our obedience to Him includes our reading. In many respects, our reading helps us to love God and to love our neighbor better. Stories, while not finally redemptive in and of themselves, can pull us toward God and toward the saving blood of Christ. The Christian tradition believes that only Christ’s redeeming blood saves from spiritual and physical death and only the sanctifying work of the Holy Spirit transforms our actions into God-honoring actions, but literature serves as a helpful vehicle to lead us into a richer understanding of the world around us and a richer understanding of how God works within that world.
John Calvin once wrote that “nearly all the wisdom we possess, that is to say, true and sound wisdom, consists of two parts: the knowledge of God and of ourselves” (Institutes of the Christian Religion) and Socrates believed that the key to living was to “know thyself.” While Greek philosophy and Christianity agree in principle that one must know oneself, they differ in two key respects. The Greeks believed that the knowledge of self was the final good, but Christians cannot agree with this. The Greeks also concluded with the humanists that we have the potential within ourselves to be godlike and dazzling as the stars. Christianity, on the other hand, believes that we are broken, lost, and self-defeated-that we clamor for noise and kick against all restraint so that we might, as Pascal aptly put, “lick the earth.”
The Scriptures and much of Western literature is rife with the truth, whether explicit or implicit, that outside of Christ, there is only death all of the time. Augustine elaborated as well on this theme of the Apostle Paul that all deeds, even apparently virtuous deeds, are motivated by a puffed up pride and are, therefore, still vices. “According to this view,” writes Caroline Simon, “the humility that arises from knowing who God is and who we are is the beginning of wisdom and the beginning of virtue” (The Disciplined Heart). Christian reading must, essentially, better inform our knowledge of man and our knowledge of God.
Third, and very simply, the act of reading should make us more compassionate, not less compassionate. I hope that needs no explanation.
What’s the point? Well, quite simply, just keep reading. It does a person good.
by Ben Palpant